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2011-12-09T17:45:00.002+08:00

Finally Became Santa Claus

Receiving call from Bernard is usually something related to camp stuffs and yep, he called me today to ask if I could replace him for some meeting on Monday. I agreed and realized after a while the things I need to prepare -.- Quite disturbed by it and especially I'm busy preparing Nicholas 21st birthday present.

Carrying these 2 burden and I went to cwp to source for some ideas. Wanted to buy a Esprit shirt for him but I did not. Guess what? I left my 21st birthday present - Fred Perry wallet in Uni Qlo fitting room. Wth. When I rushed back to find it, it was already missing. Well I hope the kind soul would return my precious wallet back to me, though I doubt he/she will.

Things lost:
1) $36
2) EZ-Link Card
3) Safra Card
4) Chervon Card
5) Ngee Ann Student Card
6) Ngee Ann Alumni Card
7) National Library Card
8) St Games Membership Card
9) POSB Go Card
10) UOB Visa Card
11) SAF 11B
12) Camp Pass
13) ISAC Card

Lord pls save me from this trouble!

2011-11-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

Promotion

Promoted to Platoon Sergeant after I came back from Hokkaido. Life's been much better and stable ever since the promotion. Just worried about the TOUGH trainings I have to go through during the course. Hope I don't need to go through the course.

Been spending a lot recently on movies and food. Luckily mum reminded me haha! Bought new exercising equipments and it seems quite useful though I only use one of them lol.

Been trying to ask ppl out but I'm giving up now haha since I have spent so much.

Should I continue with my driving lessons now that my O level english is over?

My last chance next year to get into the uni lol... Gotta come out with an alternative plan just in case.

2011-09-18T16:44:00.002+08:00

Boredom

Stopped blogging for months. Hmm been leading have a very uncertain schedule due to "Chao Geng" ppl and some who like to change the schedule w/o notifying everyone. Still, I have to admit that I'm lucky to be earning infantry pay when I don need to "chiong sua". Was told that I'll finally become a permanent spec in CMPB. Wonder if it's a good or bad choice.

One more month before I face my O lvl english paper. Let's hope I'll be able to achieve at least a B3 :)

The thought of going to church makes me feel so bored. Everyone has their own programmes, their own cliques and that makes this church looks so boring to me. It seems so fun to go out wif church members after service but in BPMC, LOL!!! Maybe it's time to find another church, afterall, I dont grow up in the church. Seriously, SIAN.... Zzz

Wanted to go for bball but JW n Ernest seems so restless recently, wana stay at home hmmm LOL!!! I need to exercise!

2011-05-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

Lost, again

Rejection from 3 local universities again. NTU letter came first and I thought...hmm I can take it... 2 days later, another 2 came and here I am, sitting in front of my lappy blogging about it. I don get it and should I say I've finally gotten the answer from You? I asked if going to the 3 universities was where You wanted me to go since You gave me a GPA of 3.6 but yet, I'm rejected thrice in 2 years consecutively. I really feel like a loser now. Yep there's definitely people facing much worst situation than this but I wana know truely, if this is wad You have planned for me or that is there something I should do first?

Fame, recognition, girls were some of the factors, I'm sure of it. You were not one of the factors I have considered when i'm applying for uni, maybe that's where I had gone wrong but how do I put You as one of the main factor? I cant see the link!!! It feels dam shitty now.

I'm retaking O's this year but I have yet to start studying. There's just too many distractions around. For some reason, I kind of find that my englihs really sucks to the core. Simple vocabulary and I dont even understand it. Lord! I've paid for the exams. Taken the first step already so pls continue to guide me. Comfort me as You know it's hard for me to accept rejection from the uni I truely wish to enter.

What I really need now is wisdom, strength and faith. Guide me O lord before I break apart. Whatever the outcome is, I just prayed that I'll be able to accept it with a open mind :)

Time to show who's the strong one here...

2011-05-23T17:30:00.002+08:00

Faith In Christianity?

Been waiting for weeks. Came back from sony service centre and my instincts tell me today is the day. Saw the postman delivering the letters and I stood beside him hoping to see the letter. All the letters were of the same size which would means that it can only be of the same result last year. True enough. NTU. WHy? 3.6? Isnt it good enough? This is my second year trying. I've been working hard and waiting for the day to gain entry to the 3 local uni and what now? What is it that you want of me? I'm just wasting my time, energy, money and effort for nothing. I cant see you, I cant hear you and I cant feel you. All I know is, I'm living each day by faith in you, by my own assumptions that everything is running smoothly.

I know, it'll be the same outcome for smu. My last hope, NUS.

Sigh... I drifting further and further away from this faith. I want it back. I want to be a good example, a good testimony in whatever I do, for I wana do it for u not me. If this is what you want of me, then pls stop me from all my wishful thinking.

2011-05-10T08:48:00.003+08:00

Updates

Who was the one who said he'll upload the photos within one or two days? LOL!!! As usual, busy and commitments were the excuses he gave. Haha! I don blame him for that of course, afterall I'm the one who's craving for the photos hahahaha! Potential new dp for my facebook. LOL! I still appreciate the effort of him uploading the photos and tagging me hahaha thanks! And btw, both of you gotta know my tone when I type something, whether is it casual or out of anger!!! Come on! You should be able to tell lol.

It's 10 May today. How many of the lazy bums have already made the effort to go online and reject the uni's offer? As long as they dont, I might not be able to receive the letter any sooner and worse come worse, a rejection letter again? Cant wait for the results!!!!

I'm sick of working though it's not physically straining. Guess I'm putting on weight already. My stress comes from the schedule and selfish ppl playing stunts on me. God! Protect me from all these ppl!!! I'm really bored from working!!! Brought the book ding yue lent me and some o lvl eng materials to read up but I just cant find the motivation to study for my o's!!!

Was talking to one of the regimental guards and suddenly he just told me that he thought I was a chinese speaking guy and I was stunned. Yep all along I'm one. He asked me if I was, and yep I admitted. WOo hoo!!! A good sign. What's left now should be none other than my writings!!!

Went to catch thor with ernest at cwp right after work. Kai ying's working at cathay now haha! Anyway the show was really nice and touching!!! Much better than I had expected.

I need some motivation!!!!!

2011-05-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

Aliens Vs Predators

Aliens vs predators? It's as good as saying the aliens are the preys. Yea that's wad's happening to me currently. I'm new and we're the one of the first few batch of elites posted to this new place. We're alien to them of course. I thought this group of guys I'm with are my allies but some are starting to prey on me instead. Arent we comrades? What happened? Trying to fight for a better life irregardless of whether I'll be the one suffering more? What's this? Cant I even have a epaceful off day? I was "eaten" up a few times and I just kept quiet w/o trying to drag you down the pool with me so why are u doing this? LOL! Who can I really trust?

This is not a movie but a real problem I'm facing. We need manpower!!! Why's all of us so stressed up? It's not physically straining for sure but mentally. Sigh... when will there be any changes???

Pray for me :) Just hope every single day is a peaceful and enjoyable day for me. If only I stayed behind in my alien planet. That's what we will face when we get transferred to a new planet. SIGH..... Pray for me :)

2011-05-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

A Night of Fellowship

Slept late last night and woke up late for sure haha. Never really think before I agreed to go watch fast & furious with simon and wei hong. Regretted after a few mins cos it's time for me to save up!!! Been spending alot on foods and transportations. Luckily, tickets were sold out BUT simon insisted on watching it back at JP so we left town early and I went straight to josh's hse. Watched NBA awhile till I fall asleep. Dam sleepy today. Kinda lazy to go for night prawning but since I agreed to go, no choice then LOL!!!

To my surprise, it was quite interesting lol! Caught 4 prawns with josh. Not bad for a first try. Enjoyed the night and thks josh for sending me home haha! Took quite a no. of photos and YEA thks to josh again hahaha! Just realized I'm the opp of josh. I'm always the one runnning behind one's back whereas he's always the one running at the front line. Not bad ah!!! Too charming and charismatic hahaha! Same goes to norman la.... happy? HAHAHA!

The thought of booking in tmr pisses me off LOL!!!!

2011-04-27T18:57:00.002+08:00

The Start of A Healthy Lifestyle

Basketball is always there for you, it never forsakes you LOL!!! Some logic it is lol! Thank God I'm having stand-by slot this 2 days. Yep, lucky I had the L2 & L3 guys with me. Used the free time for PT, basketball & pool. At least that's wad kept my mind occupied this few days. Back to 24 hours shift tml. I really need something to keep my mind occupied.

Looking at hw many photos she had recently uploaded n yet never really did upload the photo we took tgt lol. Ouch! lol! Maybe I'm too persimisstic but after what had happened, I just cant bring myself to believe her anymore. Everyone tells me that if you think she's the one, don give up but the same negative thoughts start surfacing in my mind. Just how many silly guys out there whom have been willingly to get tricked? Or maybe they really treat her as a normal friend?

Given a choice, should I stay as a replacement specs or a permanent staffs at either CMPB or Maju?

April is coming to an end. There it goes, the first window of acceptance. Will it be a repeat of history?

As much as I want, I would like to hear what you wana say to hear. Calm me down and speak to me. Guide me as I face each new days.

2011-04-25T23:40:00.003+08:00

A Repeat of History

Took 1 whole weeks, gathering informations about different places, brainstorming ideas, thinking of what I can do just for that one date lol! Yep I've never really did that before. Thinking back of wad I had done. Oh my, cant believe I'm so sweet haha. Take it as an experience then. Everything came to a waste when she demanded a change of place so yep, all efforts were wasted. Didnt really rest after I dismounted from work. Went JP earlier to recce the place n yep she came just in time for movie. Waited for an hour plus and her reason for being late is, no reason :)
Should have realize something's wrong. Just too soft hearted.

Didnt want to reveal this part of my life to my bro n sis cos yep just like norm, unless i'm confident of it, if nt better keep it low. News spreaded out really fast and the next day, I realized everything ended.

After thinking about it, I just realize maybe God is speaking to me through the movie i watched with her? A chinese Ghost Story HAHA! I'm just being hypnotized lol. Realizing how silly I was but yet I couldnt pull myself out of it but for some reason, I managed to do it ytd? She promises things she cannot does. So yep, that's just how serious she is. I'm considered lucky. Just look at the number of guys queuing up, not knowing the true fact. Does saying this makes her look like a really awful person?

Now now everyone in church must be thinking... (this guy sure changes target really fast) .... for some reason that's the feelings I got from one of them LOL! Maybe I'm too skeptical.

I give up. It doesnt seems like the real thing will come anywhere. Yep yep wait wait and wait lol! Maybe it's just becos of myself. There will not be another similar case. Gotta ensure this does nt happen again. Cant believe how much I had lowered myself to be... I'm afterall ...HAHA...

Norman and joshua... LOL! Wad u guys said is so true. Maybe becos u're not spellbinded lol.... A player keeping her options opened. SIGH!!!! Why am I so stupid LOL!!!!

2011-04-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

What You Have In Mind For Me?

Come on!!! I thought it was time to let it go and here comes another trick? Pull, release and pull again... COME ON!!!! Wad is it that you have planned for me. I've a small heart!!! Cant take it!!! I've been pestering you in my prayers DAILY!!!! Stop me while I'm still able to do so b4 it's too late!!! Looking back at wad I've done, I cant thought but thinking how silly I am, even ppl around me are laughing at me. PPl say you want us to go through some kind of experience so that we'll grow? I've been through this kind of situation b4, haven't I?

She knows I don't feel right when she don't replies but yep, she never really make it a point to change. Who am I to have her change for me too? But yep if I'm impt to her she should right??? LOL!!! Complicated!!! Do you know she's my source of motivation? I'm gg to sleep sonn so pls tell me in my dream LOL!!!! Sound like a little boy but yea.. no matter how we look or how old we are, we're still a child of your's :)

Soo han got accepted from smu already!!! Mine's still processing hmm surely not thank you letter again?

YEP QUITE pissed off when NORMAN ignored my msg.... didnt appear in fb but my BLOG!!! HAppy, norman??? HAHAHA! Everything turned out well. WEnt for lunch @ Bpp macs! Had my cheapkate meal hahaa

GG to sleep soon n doing the silly thing again..... SIGH.... why so stupid!!! I just cant stop, tell me it's nt the wrong move pls!!! I need some encouragements!!! Hopefully my "sweeties" in church receive some enlightenment from sermon today and give me some encouragements pls hahahaha! Starting my 48 hours tmr!!! How shagged can it be!!! Overslept in bus today!!!

Tell me in my dream today LOL!!! Come on!!! I've never try this kind of thing before... Surely you wont wan me to pester u daily bout the same thing?

2011-04-11T17:48:00.003+08:00

From The Waltz Disney - Beauty & The Beast

HA! Cant really think of a suitable title for this post. Just when I thought life in NS gotta get better, received a msg for replacement duties next week. Will be working 48 hours!!! It's only my second week and I got such schedule already lol.

Anyway everything started about 6 years ago. Added this beauty over at friendster. Yep it's always the case, seeing pretty girls and just when you realized it, she's already one of the few inside your friends list haha. Hardly talk to each other. 5/6 years had passed and yep, this girl, appeared in my facebook. As usual, seldom talk, the most would be sending birthday wishes annually via facebook.

The story begins when she left a msg in my facebook with her no. :) For a moment I thought I struck jackpot. LOL! What else can be more joyful than having the no. of a beauty; that was what I thought initially. It all started with webcam! LOL! She looks just as reflected in her photos. Beautiful and elegant. One who appreciates arts, is a dancer, sporty, gentle, intelluctant and beautiful. Just like my dream girl haha. For a moment, I thought God has answered my prayers haha! There's nth more happier than this hahahaha.

Facts start surfacing after the very first day of webcaming. Just like a silly child, I've been waiting day and night for her reply and to see her online again. Sound like a drama? hahaha! It never really did turns out well. She has a habit of not replying msges? Even though she might has an appt wif me and something cropped up suddenly, she always fails to inform me so yea, there I am, sitting right in front of my laptop waiting till I almost fall asleep. Tried reasoning with her but hmm i forgot what has happened. Some things she did, some very little things, I find it quite sweet haha. At least she keeps my heart beating fast. At the moment I thought I had finally found the right girl and here comes my new motivation.

There's just too many unfinished stuffs I can't wait to tell her, to chat with her but she doesnt have the time for me. Always busy and yea, I was never a priority sadly. My first week in the new unit was tough but thanks to her presence virtually, I managed to pull through. Appreciate this "online friend" of mine and yea our r/s turned to normal friends when I saw her at vivo yesterday. Like finally haha. Thought it would be a start of a new saga but things never really did change. Always wanted to meet up with her, a proper meet up and yes she agreed. I was even "threatened" to do something in order for her to agree to meet up with me. Mischievous and interesting girl indeed haha! However, till now we have failed to meetup. I do understand she wants to takes things slowly but this is way too slow, I'm just wasting all my time waiting for her. I hate to think like this but she doesnt really seems to be serious about .... you know? haha... sadly.... Telling myself, as long as she's happy, I'll be happy as well but that's utterly bullshit. Cant help but hoping I'm the right one for her hahaha but yep gotta face the reality. I cant stand it anymore. Continue to stay like this and I'm so gonna turn crazy LOL! I start to melt whenever I talk to her, that's just how impactful she is to me but if it continues like this and no improvements can be expected, I'll be the one getting really hurt.

This very special girl, I really want to be by her side but I cant seem to find the key to the door. Time to let it go...

2011-03-31T22:34:00.002+08:00

The Replacement Specialist

It was a rather relax week for me. Having "On The Job Training" almost everyday but it's quite straining on my transportation fee. Taking over maju on next mon and wed! Let's hope it's not as tough as wad he said.

Started chatting on mon and one webcam brought us closer lol. Guess being able to see other helps in communication :) A new motivation. Spent my time at home waiting and waiting lol ... Looks so silly but cant help it. Been sleeping really late this few night and I'm dam shagged nw lol.

Received a call from smu for biz interview!!! Next tue 5pm to 8pm!!! Praise the lord!!!

2011-03-28T14:51:00.002+08:00

What's The Rationale

Went through the full MP course just to be called a security leader? Arent we supposed to be full fledged MP? What's the rationale behind this? Be it whether are we the first or last batch, it doesnt change the fact we went through the full course. Seems like the recent changes did stir up quite a lot of commotion among us.

Pissed off after looking at my schedule when I thought it might be better for me instead. Came home just to receive a msg saying I'm a sly guy for psycho-ing u to ****??? Did I ever talk to u b4 about anything b4? Weird guy. Spoilt brat. What a bad day it is today. Just what have you prepared for me lord? I don feel like gg back to **** and luckily I'm nt a reserved for tht place but the fact tht my buddy is the one selected, he made quite a big fuss out of it... What is this man... things start to go well for me n bad again while at the same time things started to go bad for ppl staying beside me. Am I to be blamed for this? Someone has to do it anyway. It's just whether is it you or I.

I wont be leading a normal life starting from this week. It feels just like a basketball w/o an owner. You need to be there to be passed around, being thrown into the basket so that people around you get to accumulate points and sadly u're the one suffering... What a cruel fact it is.

Whatever it is, I still believe in you that you had prepared a good plan for me. All I ask for now, is to ease all the conflicts among ourselves - friends....

2011-03-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

Attachment @ PAD

Pierce Ammunition Dump? LOL!!! Carried two basketballs to the camp today and it became two longans after the day LOL!!!! RSM LOL!!!! All I want is just to "SAF", now all my public holidays and weekends are burnt for sure cos it's work one day n rest for the nex day lol... Routine life. There's both good n bad points which I may not have find out yet. The only thing I can do now is to put all my trust in God to give me the most suitable option. Shall not worry about it too much sigh...

2011-03-21T20:59:00.002+08:00

2PDF - 8th S.I.R

Went to clementi today for "briefing". Felt kinda disappointed after the whole day. There's still lots of uncertainties, posting to some camp for attachment and gotta wait till next week before I start working. Finally posting will only be out this thurs or fri. It's a mount, dismount type of work. Wonder if it's good or bad lol cant be attending church every sunday from nw sian!!!!

It wasnt as good as I had expected in terms of workload. The trainings we have to go through makes it sound as if we're posted to infantry lol but yet...

Quite tired after the whole day LOL!!! Gotta wake up at 4.45am tmr!!! next week gotta start my 24hrs work alrdy!!!! Stress!!! I nid some motivation lol

2011-03-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

Combined Arms Training (CAT)

It's great to be back in SCS. Feel great to see my old pals again and this time round, there's a MP arm band on my right arm haha! Of course, wadever I do, others are watching as I'm afterall a law enforcer lol. Missed the time back in MP command haha.

Went out to IT fair hoping to buy something back but apparently nothing caught my eyes. Most of the stuffs are around the same price or more expensive than outside except for TV and Laptops. I'm in need of a Ipod charger!!! Went over to Dell to see yvonne and nice hair style she got there. Glad to see her again. Anyway Billy came to meet nich and chye for clubbing right after we had our dinner. Changed alot indeed. No longer look and sound like the old billy lol.

Gotten have my hair cut tmr... SIGH!!!! It took me such a long time and effort to grow my hair and now.... LOL!!! Registered for O Level English hoping I can score a B3 for it LOL!!! Let's see... $160!!! Gotta work hard for it!!!

Instead of using a few fishing rods, Nich said he used a net instead LOL!!!! What a wise and smart move it is LOL!

2011-03-06T00:24:00.002+08:00

Good-Bye, MP Command

It's just another usual week. 2 more days and I will no longer be there anymore. WIll I be converted to a security leader or will I continue to stay as a MP? Trained so hard, stayed throughout the whole course to tell me that I might not get to wear the armband LOL!!! Hope it's not the case. I have come a long way, 8 month in NS already. Never did I expect it to be so tough to obtain a 3SG rank, finally, it's coming to an end.

Thanks to Jeremy who introduced retrosport to me. Went there with simon and got myself a Ben Sherman Tee @ $28 only!!! I need more T shirts lol!!! Went to orchard after that to check out LV stuffs. There's not a single thing I can afford lol!!! Anyway went to get a burberry perfume for julian's birthday as the audio tech headset hasnt reach me yet! Wasted my money!!! I ended up buying one burberry perfume for myself too LOL!!!

Great host as always but I was expecting at least a buffet dinner? LOL! My main dish was watermelon!!!! Julian!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!! Poor Teck Heng for starving himself till Julian's party and just to get watermelon as his main dishes hahaha! Quite a no. of hot girls were there hahaha...

My face is drying up!!! I suppose oxy 10 is really to strong for my skin lol!!!

2011-02-27T18:15:00.003+08:00

On The Job Training (OTJ) Week

No more field camp!!! Hurray!!! Haha! Time to take some time to recover from my cough :) No more stress for the time being haha! It's my bro 23rd birthday today, bought marvel vs capcom 3 at $47 for him just now. For some reason I think I might be more happier than he is LOL!!! One stone kills two birds lol!

Cant help but keep feeling excited about the results of my posting tmr!!! Time to become the ideal soldier I have always wanted to LOL!!! With pride I lead.... CAT is coming!!!! It'll be cool to wear my MP uniform in front of the other units!!! HEH!!! Pride, Discipline and honour! Time to "try" getting a better shape again lol!!! LOL always lost in my own fantasy world lol.

It's julian's birthday party this sat. What should I buy for him???

Manage to contact XL again after so long lol and glad she's doing fine. Long way to go, a bright future awaits :)

2011-02-20T17:44:00.003+08:00

My Last Field Training Hopefully

The toughest week of my training is coming, cant help but keep thinking of it. Plus I fell sick today. Wad a time to fall sick. Once it's over, there shall be more time to excercise again esp when I go back to SCS for CAT.

Went out with some of my MP peers for lunch n movie - No strings attached. A great movie, another movie that made me fell into my own fantasy again HAHA! Went straight to find simon n hong right after that. Good news were awaiting me haha! It's time to do some shopping this coming weekends!!! Let's see if i'll be able to buy myself some nice clothings and accessories.

Some said I'm getting slimmer but I cant feel it physically!!! That thick layers of fats that's still intact to my tummy!!!! LOL! Just cant seem to get rid of it!!!

I had stop sms-ing. It's not realistic at all.

Hopefully I'll get to play basketball soon too... Keep fit :)

2011-02-13T17:00:00.002+08:00

Disconnected

I'm starting to feel like an alien. LOL! Indeed it seems like after I have enlisted, I seem to be disconnected from the outside world. No. of People whom I talk to after enlistment can be counted with my 10 fingers lol.

Had my 2.4km run recently and u wouldnt want to know my timing lol. Running w/o motivation w/o an objective makes a difference.

Applied for the 3 uni last week. Time flies. It's been a year. My 2nd try. For some reason, I have faith this year wud be different but the thought of the huge workload awaiting me gives me a headache.

Bought my ipod touch 3G finally. It's cool just that transferring movies into the ipod is a hassle.

Tried to gym and take protein but it never really did last for evn 2 weeks. LOL!!! Lots of things I want to do but just... LOL hmm lazy? Half hearted? Lack of determination?

Just what are you planning for me lord? U know what I want & need.

2011-01-16T18:16:00.003+08:00

Life as An Adult

He asked: Why are u still single!!!??? LOL!

I said: Good qn but I honestly cant see anyone that can keep my heart beating fast LOL!!!

He said: You used the right technique but on the wrong gender, that's why you're still single.

LOL!!!! It's not like you dono lol.. It's really awkward talking to girls like that unless I'm close to them.... I'm afterall a gentleman HA HA HA.... not a flirt lol!!!

Been going out with simon almost every weekends to hunt for tops but to no avail. LOL! Guess the only choice left is to learn from the girls, online shopping!!!! HAHA! Quite successful though. Bought my 1st Fred Perry Polo today @ $72!!! New year clothings!!!! Woo hoo!!! Becoming a Fred Perry Fan already LOL!

Hmm haven been talking to a lot of people recently.... It's usually the same few people haha

2011-01-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday

Was it a miracle??? Wanted to plan a birthday party which I have never done so in my life but just for this 21st birthday. Due to guard duty, it was cancelled. The worse case was, I had to rush to get my project done on monday. I've been praying hard and my prayers were heard. Guard duty was replaced by someone who signed extra. Felt disappointed for him as he's a bro in christ too but gotta thank you for everything lord :)

Timing screwed up in the morning as I had to go for my hair cut. Apparently the auntie wasnt as skilful and ended cutting my neck with the electric shaver. How scary is that??? Lol! My hair!!! It's always the most important part of my body hahaha! Luckily, it's not ugly till the extent that I have to put on a cap 24/7 lol!

Buffet was cancelled but here comes high tea at Goodwoodpark Hotel, 5 star hotel!!! It was great :) The best thing was, I bought a Fred Perry wallet!!!! How cool is that man!!!! Hahaha! I guess though I wasnt able to ask anyone out today but God had a better plan for me haha. I'm pleased with all these things that had happened. Wont ask for anything more :)

Birthday wishes: 不能说的秘密 :)

2010-12-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

Last Post of 2010

It's been almost 1 month since I was posted to MP Command. I gotta admit it's the best place one would ever wana go. Thank god for that. Other than physical trainings, every other trainings are manageable but the tougher ones will be starting next week! Next sunday is my 21st birthday! LOL! Hmm I'll be having my guard duty on the 8jan, Sat and there's service on sun and I have to book in the night, I give up the plan on having a party. Just a simple lunch or dinner with my parents will do, I guess? Haha.

SMU application is open now till April 2011. The fear of rejection delayed my application. Gotta think twice about what I really want to do. Sigh... It's tough. Am I signing up for uni for a wrong purpose? Are all NS men really that desperate? LOL! Ppl might laugh at me when they see my post but who cares, afterall my blog is the only place where I get to cast all my thoughts out. It feels great lol.

If there's something that I ever want to do, that would be to prove that I'm intelligent haha. Looking at how smart my peers are in MP Command, in terms of their academic results, I cant help feeling ashamed of myself. Why didnt I work harder for my O's... Tell me... Am I really dumd lol.... Shit!!! Emo-ing again... There's only one way to prove it, try to stay on par with the others when I get into a uni.

A brand new year is coming and wad's ur new year resolution? Mine? Secure a place in uni, lepak when I get my rank, find my mrs right (hahaha! Or is she waiting in the uni? LOL) and gym more often!!!

Thank God for everything he had given me throughout the year 2010. Things just gonna get better next year, it gotta be...

2010-12-06T23:59:00.004+08:00

The End of My Training in SCS - Block Leave

It's really nice of him to drive me home at the very last day. Didnt expect him to live just diagonally across my flat. Anyway it's Tuesday today, my very last day of leave. Cant really recall wad I did daily but glad that I managed to buy GT 5 and NBA 2k11!!! Popular games indeed haha!

*Dono where did he get his source from but heard I was one of the selected ones to cross over but in the end, I wasnt selected and the cruel thing is, I was asked to be a pacer to make sure he get his gold for ippt... took my place and yet, I had to help to push him further for the place lol... I dont feel disappointed though lol! In fact I'm glad he managed to cross over, maybe that's wad friends're for hahaha! I'm sure wadeva I'm gg through now is being planned by u, lord :)*

Went gym + basketball in NP on saturday with simon and heng. It's been awhile, Np changed alot. Anyway got posted to 8th S.I.R and I heard it's most probably security trooper for key installation, RP or MP. Whether is it good or bad, I cant tell now, the one thing I never want to think about now. Anyway praise the lord for that, managed to escape from aslc haha.

Had yum cha again today but with my parents and met bee siew in the restaurant haha! Went straight to the new shopping mall in serangoon and met wayne lol! Wad a small world it is.

Tried.... not in school (NP & CHR), neither is it in church and definitely not in CAMP!!! lol! She's waiting in one of the uni lol!!! Come on come on!!! Application starting in a few months time, gotta start planning!!!

2010-11-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

Off In Lieu

Booked out at 6.40am on thurs morning! Agreed to meet up with marcus earlier at orchard before our tim sum buffet. I wonder why the friends around me are always one of a kind, though not everyone. It's just so hard to trust someone. Waited there innocently and he didnt turn up, never even bother informing me. I despise ppl like that but what to do? God teaches us to forgive and forget lol. Wanna know the reason he gave when I approached him? "Oh I forget about it" What a...

For the very first time, couldnt find anyone out for a movie so went alone instead lol! It's not as nice as I thought it would be but guess the fact that I really like harry potter had already covered up the negative part. Went straight to meet chai yun for dinner right after the movie. KFC zinger student meal + cheese fries!!!! My favourite!!!haha!

Aimed to buy at least one ps3 game during this 4 days but sadly, failed!!! Went over to SITEX with nicholas and jun wei and couldnt find anything that attracts my eyes haha. Apparrently the games are really expensive. Hope to get some ps3 games soon!!!

2010-11-13T12:50:00.002+08:00

What A Bad Week

It's field camp week. The start of a tough and challenging week for me. It's just 3 days 2 nights (Supposed to be 2 days 1 night, thanks to the "boy" from 5th coy), but it's more than enough to make u drop flat on the ground lol. Majority got affected by heat rashes including me. U wont want to experience it.

Was raelly shagged when I sat down on the bench in the training shed, "checking clear" of my SAR21 and suddenly one round went off from my gun lol... I guess I'm famous now... SOL 7days??? Sigh...

Had soc test yesterday, thank God for pulling me through, cleared every obstacles but as for timing, I hope I made it in time. Am I getting weaker? Till now I cant pull myself up and try to take leadership roles lol.

Received my two new beanies alrdy!!! Nice...

Wanna go out but cant find anyone lol! Going out to make a new pair of specs now :)

Next week will be even tougher but it'll be fine after the week :) Pray and work.

With pride I lead, SCS lol!

2010-11-06T17:35:00.002+08:00

The Thought of Crossing Over to OCS

Am I being too unrealistic? Cant help putting away the thought of crossing over to ocs. I cant control my feelings and thoughts at times. All I can remember is that I cant stay motivated for more than 1 day. Feeling comes and goes.

Garang? Initiative? I'm nt mentally strong enough yet. There's a lot of things I wana achieve during this 1 yr and 10 mths. Got to stay positive and attain as many achievements as possible. Trainings might not be as tough as it is in BMT but just what is the factor making me so unmotivated to continue my daily life in NS? Gotta depend on musics to motivate myself everyday.

Brought one of my dumbbell into the camp. Let's hope I'll start training hard again.

Bought ps3 2 days ago. Not to mention FF13 lol! Impressive graphics :)

Been seeking inspiration from noobthenick's blog. Yea in order to make the full out of this NS life, cant be training physically forever, gotta start reading as well. Few more months before application for uni starts, this time round, I'll definitely make it. By then, I gotta make sure my english has been "polished". Looking through the past photos he had uploaded made me realized just how much we had grown. Time flies.

2 sunday burnt just for live firing. Cant go to church. I need to recharge lol. The one thing I never wana miss - attending church services.

Cant help looking at the lump sum of money I'll earn if I sign on. I supposed that is the binding factor plus I get to work in office and somewhere near my home. Signed the withdrawal form as my sunday will be burnt if I sign on. It's the right choice. I'm sure of it :)

Went for med checkup and same thing happened again. No results, come back again for X ray. it's the sec or third time I've been feeling a slight pain all of a sudden. What's happening???

Free time is what I really need now.

2010-10-31T18:00:00.003+08:00

The Start of My 4th Week in Specialists Cadet School

Been having buffet for like every weekends cos there's just so many birthday party lol!!! Just when I realized it, I'm turning 21 soon too. Life in SCS so far... hmm not bad haha. I guess it's all about the commanders we have there. Thank God for everything. Indeed he has a great plan for me. Wonder if I'll be able to cross over to ocs and sign up for Airforce Officer positions. Is it a wise choice for me if i managed to cross over?

Sadly I didnt bring my camera for Justin's birthday and yea, no pictures uploaded in fb yet lol!!! Inefficient at all!!! Haha jkjk.

Went out with simon, hoping to purchase 1 or 2 "Praise" T shirts but to no avail lol. Saw the cameras sales and wanted to purchase one but wonder why i hesitated and went off lol! Anyway glad that I managed to buy 3 berms ytd lol. Grey, black and white each haha!

Oh yea my latest IPPT results, here goes:

2.4km Run - 9.37min (5 Points)
Shutter Run - 9.7s (5 Points)
Sit-ups - 42 (5 Points)
Pull-ups - 12 (5 Points)
SBJ - 239 (4 Points)

Total Score: Gold (24/25) 1 more point to a perfect gold hahaha

Thank God for everything. Even though I had always wanted to get a gold but never did I expect myself to be able to achieve it. Indeed nth is impossible :)

2010-10-10T17:57:00.002+08:00

Final Countdown to SCS

Went church today as usual. Kinda disappointed as it ended kinda late and I was rushing to meet evangeline. Didnt get to catch up with the others! One thing for sure, Gordon never fails to share his past NS experiences with me lol. Fit indeed.

It's been just 2 days after the posting results are out and I have already know of around 10 ppl going to OCS. LOL! It was really a surprise when some of them told me they got posted to scs haha leader in disguise. It's an honor man! Army's wing! Officer!

Even though knowing that SCS is more suitable for me especially when I get stressed up easily, but cant help feeling disappointed for not getting into ocs lol. MAN!!! Fame is the main factor causing my disappointment now, I suppose?

Fight for OCS when I get into SCS? Will the fire keeps on burning?

Lord pls help me sort out my mind!!! I'm trying not to think so much but LOL!!! I have always wanted to be one of the best.

It's driving me mad LOL!!!! OCS SCS OCS SCS!!!

2010-10-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

Aftermath

Posted to SCS - Specialists Cadet School. One thing for sure, I wouldnt be as stressed as I forsee myself to be if I got posted to OCS. For some reason, I'm worried of the uncertainties and maybe a new environment again. What awaits next might be tougher. Seems like majorities got posted to command school, I'm sure I'll see lots of familiar faces :)

Went back to BP to visit my grandma ytd. Just came back today and finished packing my bag! Wad a relief :) Gained 4kg during this week LOL!!! How do I maintain my diet and weight if this happens during every book out hahaha!

Will I still be as carefree as I am now when tmr comes. My last day before a new challenge again.

2010-10-07T22:56:00.004+08:00

Pre-Posting Day

Looking back at the GP photos, it sure brings back memories and just when I thought it's the end, it was in fact the start of the real NS life. What to do? Ask me if I enjoy serving the NS? Stop kidding me, you know it. Hmm postings will be out tmr. OCS? SCS? Man? Try my best to look on the bright side, at least I'll be in Singapore but away from the city -.-

Thanks wong for accompanying me to Emart to buy my No. 4 :) Finally got myself a more suitable size haha.

As usual, my scouting partner, nicholas brought me over to china town for Tim Sum buffet. It was really nice of wei qian to drive us there and we had great time fellowshipping with one another. It was really really delicious and nice!!!! Gotta bring my parents over and maybe a girl??? LOL! Who's the lucky one hahaha

Man!!!! It's friday already.... Pls tell me i don have to report back on monday... Thinking of NS spoils my mood.

2010-10-04T20:26:00.004+08:00

Block Leave

It's party time! Finally get to rest for 1 week? 10 days? Well gotta wait till friday before I know the results. By now, those successful soldiers who got selected for OCS would have already received their letter :( Though I know I'll definitely hate the trainings in ocs but wonder why, just felt that sense of failure knowing that I didnt make it for ocs (most probably). It's after getting into BMT that I realized being a sergeant is really a no big deal kind of thing.

Went to hospital ytd wif my parents but didnt have a conclusion to what's happening. What's the cause of the swell? Hormones inbalanced? LOL! Does tht explains why everyone is telling me that I'm too gentle? Then how do u explain those bushes of hair over my legs LOL!!! High level of both male and female hormones? LOL! Really hope it's nth serious :) Pray for me peeps. I need a confirmation!!! I nid to know the reason behind this thing and that it's nth serious!

Had a great day today especially with julian and chee yi around. Went to watch lengend of the fist and follow by k box. Hmm it feels werid today. Didnt really enjoy as much as i do as compared to our first k box outing lol! It feels great to be a student once again. Student meals for lunch at KFC haha! My favourite as usual, zinger meal with cheese fries.

Have a lot of things in mind that I wana do and buy. Is it a need or a want? Gotta pull myself away from temptations, from greed. Wanna buy one set of uniform and exercise tmr (Gym & basketball most probably) but have yet to come out with a plan!!! Von agreed to acc me, simon definitely don mind gyming with me but what bout basketball tmr? Just the two of us? hmmm...

2010-10-02T17:40:00.003+08:00

Out of Tekong - POP Lo!

Route march or road march??? Anyway had a hard time trying to squeeze everything in my cupboard into my field bag. Left tekong at around 7.30pm in the night and starting march around 8pm. Mentally and physically tough haha! Started the march with an aching tigh and feet. Guess it was a pleasure to have my march on the mainland, at least there's nice sceneries.

Really glad that I can finally leave tekong. Made some great friends and acquired lots of skills. Dont have to leave Singapore again!!! I'm lucky enough to be in the pioneer batch to have our parade and march in Singapore. It was really nice haha!

The moment when we threw our joky caps up high, tears started to flow down from both jun kai and zhi ming's eyes. Don feel like leaving each other as well but one thing funny about this was, instead of making a girl shedding tears for me, I made 2 guys shedding tears over me (partially). LOL! Doesn't it sounds weird? Haha!

Our posting will be out next friday after 10pm. I believe God has a plan for me :) I'm so gonna enjoy my 12 days of block leave :) Basketball, shopping, movies, lan, k box and maybe playing my cello LOL!

2010-09-26T17:08:00.002+08:00

The Last Book In

Sure bring back memories. Will we still stick together like we used to be after we pass out from BMT? The bond we have is really strong but how long will it last? It was really a pleasure getting to know everyone :) OCS? SCS? Unit? Should I sign on if I get into OCS?

Been eating alot after I booked out haha! Enjoying here but money dropping out from my mum's wallet LOL!

It's been a while since I last chatted with you. Headly have the chance to do so given that you always tht busy. It's really sad to see how stressed you are. Ran out of words to encourage and cheer u on. Book the book helps. Really hope to see you carrying the chain along wherever u go haha. Anyway all the best! Trust in the lord with all your heart :)

Gotta book in soon. Hope that there'll be good weather for the next few days. Rehearsal for the entire week. Just how tiring it can be? All I need is a cooling weather!

Last book in... FINALLY!!! Gotta prepare already!!! See ya :)

2010-09-25T11:48:00.002+08:00

This Marks An End to My Life in BMTC!

Training to be soldier,
Fight for our land,
Once in a life,
Two years of our time.
Have you ever wonder?
Why must we serve?
Because we love our land,
And we want it to be free to be free ARGH!

Sick and tired of all the marching songs but wonder if i'll miss singing these songs in future. The past 2 months were the toughest moments I ever had. Everyone is saying just how fun life in BMT is and how much you will miss your time in BMT when you get posted to other units. Just how true it is. Maybe it is indeed true but the things I really cant bear to leave behind are my friends. Dont really like the trainings and programmes. Physically and mentally straining at times.

Just when I realized it, it has already come to my last week in BMTC. Will we continue to stick together after our posting? I can't answer that question haha. No programmes today!!! Boring.

Isn't there anyone who wana go out today?

2010-09-18T22:17:00.002+08:00

Is This The Peak?

A tough week indeed. The day after my IPPT test, I had my 12KM road march and didnt even have the time to rest and went straight for arms drills and SOC test. Managed to clear all obstacles but I'm nt sure if my timing hits the requirement.

Didnt manage to obtain a gold for IPPT test :( Anyway is this really the peak of my physical fitness?

Lighter in the weekdays but heavier over the weekends haha! Been enjoying myself during the weekends :)

2010-09-11T21:46:00.004+08:00

3 Hours of Rest

Agreed to meet up earlier to prepare Kenneth's birthday yesterday but everyone had something on at the last min except for Justin. Glad we managed to get something nice (I hope?) for him and I bought a beanie from Topman :)

Seems like everyone is obsessed with beanie. thanks to my influence hahahaa!

Buffet was great and had fun interacting with my section mates. Sadly Zibin had to leave half way as he had to replace Kenneth for guard duty. Such a great sacrifice haha! Sloppy movements as usual and we dragged the time all the way to 1145 and I missed my last train and bus, luckily Kenneth came to pick up back to aloha. Had bout 3 hrs of rest and left early in the morning to gym with nicholas. Dam shagged now but had a great dinner :) KFC!!!! Finger licking GOOD! Here comes my sore throat again.

Didnt manage to buy any clothes or jeans today but had a great time :)

I'm starting to doze off....

2010-09-10T09:51:00.002+08:00

The Start of Physical Training Phase

SIT Test went off smoothly though I had to admit I didnt really have the chance and motivation to try and lead others into a solution LOL! Say Good Bye to OCS lol! 6 weeks had passed, 3 more to go. Had fun hanging around with my section mates haha! A group of interesting peers and not to mention my buddy, a hyper ventilator LOL!

A lot happened during this week or should I say every week. Trainings are getting tougher in terms of physical matters. Final IPPT Test will be held on next wed. Gold? Possible? My legs are aching!!!

Anyway just booked out ytd and had a stomach-filing lunch ant ananas cafe lol! Chicken rice and nasi lemak at just $3.80!!!! How cheap can it can haha! Cough got better right after I got home. Is the water in tekong the main cause of this?

Haven been using my HP for quite some time, no smses except from my mum haha! Siannnnnn

2010-09-04T19:17:00.002+08:00

Time Flies

A few minutes more b4 I leave for NS. I would have leave my house by now if it's not for my buddy. It was really sweet of him. Offering a ride all the way to Pasir Ris, all I need is to go BP and wait for him. Really touched. Save my time and money :)

Just when I realised it, it's already the start of week 6. 3 more weeks to go. If you think 9 weeks is short, you're wrong. Imagine urself having programmes every single hour and that u hardly have the time to rest, would you still think that 9 weeks is short?

SIT Test tml!!! Cant help thinking about this. I'm not familiar with the combat stuffs yet, afterall it's just a few hours of "lecture"!!! MAN!!! God help me!!! This is a chance for everyone to show their leaderships as well as capabilities!!!

Right after SIT test, I'll be left with just IPPT and SOC. SOC was a great disappointment of course, I'm still weak!

It's sad to know that I gotta skip church again tmr. Pls pray for me, bro & sis in christ. Heard SIT test is more tiring!

MAN I gotta go alrdy! Time's running out!

2010-09-03T20:29:00.002+08:00

Back From Field Camp

A relief indeed :) Came back from field camp last saturday. Though I supposed our field camp wasnt as tough as the 5th coy but it was definitely tough enough for me. Ever thought of not being able to bathe daily and eat normally like you used to do so daily? One major activity down and the next one will be our Situational Test on this coming sunday.

First IPPT test results:

Pull-ups - 12 (10 normal 2 underhand), 5 points
Shutter Run - 9.6 (5 points)
Sit-ups - 42 (5 points)
SBJ - 225 (3 points)
2.4km - 11.21 (3 points)

Total: 21 points, Silver

Second IPPT test results:

Pull-ups - 11 (Normal), 4 points
Shutter run - 10.38 (4 points)
Sit-ups - 40 (5 points)
SBJ - 225 (3 points)
2.4km - 10.21 (4 points)

Total: 20 points, Silver

Except for 2.4km run, I was quite disappointed with my results! No improvements at all, is field camp the main cause? Anyway praise the lord for such results :) Never expected myself to be able to hit a silver for IPPT.

Failed my SOC the next day after my IPPT. I guess my weekends might be burnt starting from next week!!! Sigh!!!!

Anyway another miracle was being able to attain MARKSMAN on my first attempt. Haha!

Gotta book in tmr, pray for me peeps! It's my situational test, another major part of my BMT and my cough is getting worse again.

2010-08-15T15:51:00.002+08:00

My First Book Out

Finally back from tekong. The place wasn't as bad as i thought it would be BUT the trainings can be tough at times. Trying to adapt to this new environment. What I need is time!!! Everything we do must be fast enough which seems quite impossible at times. A lot of people fall sick during this 2 weeks. A lot of them reported sick too. I thought I was strong enough to withstand the germs and viruses but never did I expect myself to fall ill the moment I reached home. Fever, cough, sore throat and flu. Thank God for protecting me till I reached home. Cant afford to fall sick during my trainings.

Skipped church today as my parents wanted to bring me over to Alexandra hospital. Got my med already and hope I'll get well soon. It's been 3 weeks!!! I really miss church alot.

Let's hope everything turns out well from my first book in tonight.

PS: Bro & Sis!!! Pls pray for me! Health and strength!

2010-07-28T20:33:00.002+08:00

My Last Post Before Enlistment

If today was your last day, what would you do? Had trouble pulling myself up from the bed. I knew that it was my last day at home. Stayed at home the whole day but got so restless after dinner. Just felt like sleeping again but I will be wasting the precious time I have at home. Didnt get to eat my Zinger Burger meal with cheese fries but glad my parent brought me out for ZI ZHA! It was delicious, thanks! :)

The only one I can think of, who lives near me and enlisting on the same date as me is none other than Nicholas. Met him up before he went for his farewell dinner. Yes we're more or less having the pre-enlistment stress.

Ask me if I thought of aiming for the OCS, well I never really think of it yet. All I ask of now is to adapt to the new environment asap. I need strength, motivation, faith and determination.

Thanks everyone for making my pre-enlistment days an memorable one.

I'll be away for quite some time, don't really know if I'll ever have the habit of blogging again. Take care peeps.

Good Bye :)

2010-07-27T21:59:00.003+08:00

Last Gathering Before Enlistment

Since the gathering was postphoned till today, I thought I wouldn't be able to make it but glad I had the chance to have my last gathering with my classmates. It's always just the 4 of us haha.

Watching the sorcerer's apprentice and went straight to novena for guitar hero. I seriously didn't want to spend more than 8 bucks for the games so Simon paid for my membership fees LOL! It's $10 btw. THANKS simon! LOL!

Anyway here's 2 pictures taken during my first farewell dinner by my brothers and sisters. Sweet haha

2010-07-26T22:37:00.005+08:00

Marvellous Invention

Met Razia at 11am for "brunch" at BK and went to watch Hot Tub Time Machine. I rate it 7/10 haha! Went straight home after the movie to rest.

Met up von and jun wei to play monopoly deal card game at Macs. I'm addicted to board and card games all of a sudden. Bang & monopoly deal. It seems like the card game is getting more popular.

Cam whored with von only as Jun Wei didnt want to take photos lol. Had uploaded all the pictures in FB. As usual we headed to cresent park for basketball. I think I have really gotten better LOL but at the wrong timing. Enlisting soon. No more time for basketball.

Discovered the truth I had always wanted since a few mths ago. Disappointing. So fragile.

There's no longer a need to show you the picture of her. LOL!

Can feel the intensity already. Just like wad Nicholas had faced, at one moment I'm looking forward to NS another moment I'm getting emotional over this. 2 more days left.

2010-07-25T22:15:00.004+08:00

Farewell Lunch

It was sweet of you people, thanks. Anyway was surprised to see Jun Yong back in Sgp. Just nice haha! One down, another returned. Though disappointing but just have to look on the bright side.

Fiona, Jie Ying, Wei Qiang, Jun Yong, Terrence and Norman.

And YES norman! Very touched, twice in a row haha!

3 more days to go.

2010-07-25T21:32:00.003+08:00

Evolution of My Hair Style Throughout The Few Years

2010-07-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

My Farewell Dinner

I can remember clearly the few people who took the extra effort to have a farewell dinner with me at Astons today. Really touched and I really enjoy playing "Bang". Nice game indeed though draggy. Norman's getting sick of it lol!

Geoffrey, Gabrielle, Vivian, Vina, Ding Yue, Norman and Xiu Hui. Thanks for your time.

It feels like "OUCH" to see that you had already started driving and I'm still with my PDL. I honestly got no motivation to continue learning how to drive. Thanks to the sick minded instructor. BUT, I'm proud of you, dude. HAHA!

Met up Jun Wei for lunch at Mac ytd. I guess the people I have been meeting up with are Jun Wei and Nicholas. Becoming a gay soon lol. Anyway I just jun jie and raymond in Mac and was surprised that they are actually doing relief teaching haha.

Went for movie in the afternoon with Jun Wei again. Dispicable Me. Nice and touching movie indeed. Didn't have the chance to watch it with a girl though LOL! Indeed, becoming a gay soon. Met Chi Yang while on my way back and he has just shifted over to the opposite block. What a coincidence! Is this really some kind of farewell for me? Meeting up old friends before I enlist lol.

2010-07-23T21:24:00.004+08:00

What Is Becoming Of This World

Faith? Do you mean believing in someone that he will abide by his promises? I think it's the opposite for me. Is that something to be happy about? I have faith in my brothers, have faith that they will not turn up. How sadistic.

The main point still goes all the way down to presence/attendance. If it's something which you had promised to attend or join or whatsoever, then show God that you're willing to commit.

No matter how I look at this, It doesn't change the fact that I have faith that certain people will not turn up for certain commitments they had made. These commitments can just be going out with friends to catch a movie etc. As simple as that.

How often do you fall into temptations? Do you know what's causing your downfall? Excues? Too tired? Overslept? If I can do it, why cant you people?

I got to admit that I find it hard too but I will definitely abide by the promises I had made. I'm Christian afterall. Whatever I do, he's watching. Other people around us will be watching as well.

Why is everyone around me bahaving like this? It's so tiring and disappointing to know that I have to spend that extra effort to call that person before I leave my house to make sure that he will be coming for the "appointment" or knowing that there's an commitment that we have made to join a "group" but everytime before I attend it, I have to call and urge my brother to attend. What's this?

Maybe it's true, it's true that why I should be affected by others? It's your own commitment. Don let others affect you. So why should I spend that extra effort to be there when I can spend my time at home doing the same time? Maybe informing the in charge that you're no longer interested would be the best solution rather than MIA.

Dear readers, when you read my post, do you think that I'm talking about you? Pls don't. Take it as a reminders. Don think about others. Reflect upon yourself. Whatever you do, you're accountable for it, to GOD not me. If you're thinking "Aiya who cares, who are you to say this, you're of no diff as well" then don't regret over the consequences later. Wake up people. WAKE UP!

Anyway, It's so troublesome to create another album to this few photos so I thought of uploading it on my blog. Thanks again for the shirt von :)

2010-07-22T21:10:00.002+08:00

Back In Singapore

Met Yvonne in the morning for the NP shirt. It was so nice of her to give me one of her NP shirt. Been trying to buy the shirt but it was always out of stock. I appreciate that, yvonne :)Thanks

One more thing to get before enlistment, non-camera HP! Got my watch today at mustafa, $23! Sadly jun wei and I didnt go to K box as we're not entitled to the $8 promotion. Wonder how much does it cost to be a K Box member.

Anyway just came back from KL & Genting. It was great to see my cousins once again though for only 3 days. Right after I came back from KL, I went straight to Genting with Nicholas. It was really great. A time for fellowship and to put everything aside to relax. Now that I'm back, it means the time has come. I got to admit I'm not prepared mentally.

Anyway I had already uploaded most of the photos in FB, feel free to take a look. There's some hot and sexy pictures of my dear bro Nicholas too. LOL!

Had another small gathering ytd with Nicholas and Samuel, apparently Sui Xiong was too tired to join us. As usual, he likes digging up the bad memories of the past LOL but it's still good to see each other.

It's so touching to hear that my church members are organizing a farewell dinner for me this saturday. Did the others get to enjoy such treatment as well before they enlist? Hmm I must say I'm one lucky guy haha! It's really sweet to think that everyone are willing to be there despite being so tired after work or school.

Lord, Thanks for everything :)

2010-07-13T13:28:00.002+08:00

Fun Deluxe Package

From 1st July, my first day after I stopped working, until now I have yet to lay my butt at home for one full day haha! Wonder if toady is an exception. It was great, going out, play basketball & cello, gym and play blackshot. Just when I realized it, there's only 2 more weeks left.

"What are you afraid of?", "Why are you worried, if others can do it, you'll definitely make it too." I don't know what I'm actually feeling right now, all I know is, the thought of enlisting makes me feel uncomfortable.

It's a chance, a chance to build myself up physcially and mentally. But why...

I thought this new hair style was ok till jian en and victor came to tease my on sunday. Is it really true that the officers like to tekan us so much? Sigh, is that a warning from you, God?

Going KL to visit my cousin with my parents and right after that, I'll be going Genting with nicholas. It'll be fun and meaningful definitely. A chance to get out of Singapore to quieten down ourselves and pray tgt to God.

Not much time left.

2010-07-06T11:48:00.002+08:00

Is That Really Me?

Showing the touch from the outside and dominating under the basket, is that really me? Kevin Garnet? Lebron James? Kobe Bryant? Oh come on! I'm surprised how you people are able to come up with such SUITABLE nickname for me LOL! (My wishful thinking?)

Anyway, glad jun wei, norman and friend turned up ytd. Though muscles're already aching from gymming but that doesn't stop us from putting up a good match haha! Looking forward to this thurs. Hope more people will join us or at least more people to appear in the court.

I give up trying to convince simon and heng that I don't wana go for KBOX TODAY!!! LOL! What so interesting bout singing sia haha! Let's hope it'll be fun later haha

2010-07-03T19:41:00.003+08:00

Pre-NS Days

My first and last photo with my colleagues from Singapore Customs. Prepared a surprise for them but it seems like nth happened. Didn't even receive a reply from them saying they have received our card and email. Oh well, at least we got our thoughts across to them :)

Straight after my work ended, I got a list of programmes coming up! Great :) Anyway was invited over to some malay orchestra as guest musicians and apparrently I'm not used to the environment. I'm the odd one out lol, the only chinese. Majority of them smoke and I cant really stand the smell!!!

Went for hair cut at lush. Probably my last hair cut i thought but it seems not to be the case. Yes it's a really unique style but I'm not used to this kind of style!!! It's weird. Botak seems much nicer than this LOL! Tell me what to do now!!!! MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!

Sigh...

2010-06-27T20:58:00.003+08:00

Update Update!!!

With my time working in custom coming to an end, feel kinda disappointed but I gotta leave. Need some time to prepare myself mentally for NS haha! It's been great working in customs - HR Branch with so many interesting and funny colleagues around us and of cos, my buddy, coffee (Teck Hui).

How does it feel when a company or your colleagues treasure and see you as an asset to them. It feels great haha! Unlike my previous employer which gave me a nightmare, customs was undoubtedly an interesting and comfortable place :)

Hui & I were appointed as helper for the MOF family day event yesterday and I had to wake up early in the morning again!!!! Met some demanding colleagues who claimed that they did not receive any emails and went to the wrong place. Poor Kai wen was blamed for this and he was emo-ing after that! LOL!

Anyway, I have been going to church for 4 CONSECUTIVE days. My pockets are DRAINED!!! Spent so much on transportations!

This post sure looks like an essay to me haha! Hmm shall do some reflections about myself.

It seems like there're many ppl around me who are much more generous than me haha! Am I too selfish?

Alot of pple recently said I kou hua hua and look no that bad either so how come I'm still single haha! How do I know??? I want to know the answer as well HAHA! No point rushing into one either.

From a smile to sms-ing(reciprocated) to total silent to greeting when we see each other to sms-ing(non-reciprocated, apparently I'm the one talking) to greeting each other w/o a smile (cold) to total silent again. What a interesting cycle.

It's been almost one month since I last played basketball. Woo hoo... Can feel that I'm getting worse haha! No stamina, no accuracy, dribbling sucks as usual -.-

Turning JULY soon!!! Gotta get my last nice hair cut this week :D

2010-06-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

Magnanimous

Our actions reflect our characters. Missing w/o a notice. Promises made but not fulfilled.
Apparently those forced me to say this today, are mainly christians. Christians? I'm glad I was the one who came across with such christians instead of the non-christians.

Forgive your brothers 7 times the no. of times he sinned against you. Here you are forgiving him, there he is repeating the same mistakes. Just gotta learn to be magnanimous.

I'm not just refering to you but to all christians, let your actions be explainable to God. Excuses are meant to lead you into the wrong path. Apologising makes no difference. If your image has been ruined by your own actions, it's time to reflect on wad you should do from now.

To all christians: Reflect upon your own actions when you read this post, that includes myself.

2010-06-16T21:56:00.003+08:00

That's Just Me

Satan! Get off my mind! Wad am I thinking? Too sensitive? Just gotta remind myself that I'm doing this for God. Give me some faith and patience.

Been hanging around with nicholas and wei ming. Lan and chilling out at Mac to chit chat haha! Thks to wei ming I was able to get my pedro loafers!!! Wore it for the second time only and I found out that the leather was actually wearing off already!!! LOL! Did I see wrongly? Hope so too lol.

Anyway tmr's lishi camp already, hope everything turns out smoothly.

I have decided, I wont stay for long. There's couple of things I wana do before I enlist.

2010-06-05T11:38:00.002+08:00

Lost

One more month to go and I'm still not getting anywhere. Putting on weight again LOL! 10 Pull-ups, more to go :)

It's saturday today but here I am, sitting in front of my com, blogging. Seems like everyone is busy with their own programmes. Give up trying to find someone to go out with lol.

TH had just received his reply from smu regarding his appeal. Felt sad for him but nth can be changed. I'm not putting any great hope on my appeal for NTU as well. I'll follow God's plan for me.

She doesn't seems to be bothered or keen, Has no time, can't possibly Expect anything from her. If I do, and it happens, it'll be just pure Luck as she has got Attitude. Guess this sums up everything lol.

2010-05-31T20:20:00.002+08:00

Graduation Ceremony

2010-05-26T20:56:00.003+08:00

Life After Ngee Ann

Ytd marks an end to my 3 years in NP. Lots of fond memories indeed. The 20 of us though one left during our first or second year. Hope she's doing fine now. Graduation ceremony was fun but sadly we didnt go out as a class as expected. 3 of them did not turn up. Wonder wad happened. Asked quite a no. of people to come over and take pictures with me, sadly none turned up, tht includes two of my bro.

Anyway I'm glad to be in 3L02 and of cos I'll remember everyone. I'm finally a Diploma holder.

Received the results from all 3 uni already. It wasn't as I had expected it to be but what to do, that's just the cruel part of reality.

I wonder how long should I continue working. Mid or end of june? Regarding the thought of settling down before NS, I guess I should just stop thinking so much LOL!

2010-05-19T20:57:00.002+08:00

Just Another Disappointing Day

Work was fine today. Caught a flu this morning again. Too weak!

Being reading the bible daily, trying to find words of encouragement or rather is there anything HE wana tell me after so many things happened.

Received the similar letter today and it was just as wad I had expected. Is that the end?

I have already crossed the line in my own mind, it's so hard to get it off me, just tell me I'm right about this.

2010-05-18T20:12:00.003+08:00

The Trio

I'm always well aware of the 3 main pillars. I know that at the end of it, I can only choose to work with of them. It's a tough choice. Just this morning I was cheering my friend up for losing one of the pillar and here I am, receving the bad news straight after I got home. Though this wasn't the partner I wanted to work with in the first place, but it was afterall the strongest pillar.

Gotta admit I was quit confident that the trio would accept me, never did I expect this result. Disappointing indeed. Everyone's telling me "Hey don worry man! You'll definitely make it!". I hope it's true. This is the cruel side of reality.

Two more left. Just gotta wait "patiently" for the right time.

2010-05-17T23:46:00.003+08:00

Interesting Monday

As usual, work was great and teck hui's finally returning tml :) Thanks for the candy and drink, appreciate both of you. Was surprised I managed to find the missing P File LOL! Truely God's grace.

Met up with yan li, hui lin, lionel and nich. Well I do understand how you feel, yan li. I believe everyone would have experience such a situation as well. I'm glad you shared it with us today, hope you're feeling better now.

Maybe when others look at my blog, they might laugh at wad I'm blogging about but I guess it's because I feel much better writing everything out so NICH! Stop laughing at me!

Shared my problem with my friends and some said she's just not interested whereas some said, she might be trying hard to catch and a minority asked me to continue trying. Confusing indeed. I'm really praying hard about it.

It's 11.56pm now!!! Gotta sleep :) Good night peeps :)

2010-05-16T19:31:00.003+08:00

Memorable Weekends

I was on MC last thurs and fri! Never did I expect that it would be such a great weekend. Started the first day going to polyclinics and went to ernest's house to get DOTA! Thank God that I'm really recovering fast. That was in fact the main highlight of my wonderful weekend LOL! Got a Jap basketball drama - Buzzer Beat from him.

Love makes you strong HAHA!

Just like the main character, my shooting accuracy is indeed commendable as well!! But unlike him, I was always chasing after someone else and not the other way round LOL! Wad a cruel fact lol!

Had a tough time finding someone to go collect my HDD with me at Sim Lim. Some ignored while some couldnt make it but glad two volunteered haha! Thanks Soo Han and Don :)

Been exercising over the past 3 days, basketball and swimming but it seems like I gained weight LOL! Ate too much? Hope to master swimming before I get into NS. I need some motivation for swimming!!!

Just when will my life be like the one filmed in the drama LOL!

Tried playing cello again, still the same as always. Not bad HAHA! How long will it lasts?

29 July is coming!!! If things doesn't get better, maybe I should just give it up :) It might not be the best choice for me.

2010-05-14T12:08:00.003+08:00

It's me

Though not the best but I was always among the better ones. That's not because I'm talented but because I was twice as hardworking :)

Everything seems so dramatic. LOL!

2010-05-13T21:21:00.003+08:00

Two Days of MC

Went to see a doc early in the morning and for all I know, I'm recovering faster than I expected haha! Measured my height and weight today and yes, healthy as always haha!

4 days of break, gotta think of wad I really want and need now.

Though talking to you is one of my agenda but u always make me feel weird whenever I talk to u lol. Old habit never change. Still as unfriendly to me as always lol. Should I continue to chat with u? Hmm...

I gotta be persistent? Haha!

2010-05-10T20:58:00.002+08:00

My Turn Next

I'm glad I'm surviving for the first day of the interview week. With teck hui away, I might even have to cover some of his jobs. Sadly I started this week with a sick body. LOL! Wad a good timing lol. Thank God I have my parents to take care of me :) Sweet <3

Been hearing lots of good news recently and just received one from simon. Glad for you dude. It'll be my turn next haha!

I'm waiting for the right chance at the right time. Enlisting soon. Time's running out.

2010-05-09T16:03:00.002+08:00

Beautiful Sunday

Rushed to church only to realize tht the meeting started at 9am instead of 9.30am LOL! Felt so guilty. Srry bout tht peeps. It's the last time I hope.

Chances are slim but when they come, you gotta be quick and grab hold of it. Even though it was just a few minutes but it was good enough haha. Chances like this doesnt come as and when I want it.

Was really shocked when I heard Norman passed his TP haha! Proud of u bro :) Both Josh and I are really disappointing indeed HAHA! I must not compare myself with others again haha. When the time is right, I'll make sure I get my licence.

2010-05-05T20:24:00.002+08:00

Working Life

Wake up in the morning, groom myself, have breakfast, report for work, knock off from work, bathe and sleep. That's wad I have been doing since last monday. Routine Life.

I have always thought HR was where my interests are, but it seems like it may not be the case. LOL. Well it's a good experience :)

I was surprised to see wei hern and ting wei working in the same building haha. I wonder if others may feel the same when they see their seniors as I really wonder why I felt so touched. LOL. Well at least I know there's friends working somewhere near me and we might be able to meet each other some days.

Anyway I suppose you cant picture wad a person will say in the midst of being pissed off and frustrated so let's just let it be then. It's better said than never, at least everything is clearly segregated now. Though I still kind of feel it's wasted but HAHA this's the best choice.

2010-05-01T16:55:00.003+08:00

Just Who The Hell Are You?

Just when I thought everything had ended, it turned out to be the opposite way. Was that a good sign? Was looking forward to the next meeting but same thing occurred. Having something on at the last minute and turning down the meeting as usual. Sick in the mind you are, just how long are you going to come up with this kind of "joke". Lol. 人不可貌相!!!

You're lucky my vocabulary isn't good HAHA! I can only think of really nasty words to describe "humans" like you. How many kinds of peoples are there in this world. Just my luck to come across with such sicked people always.

My lord see through everything that's on your and my mind. He knows what all of us are thinking and hiding. You people wont travel far, trust me.

Anyway went to swim with long, da and JJ! It was really touching to see the 3 of them so willing to teach me PATIENTLY despite the fact that I still cant make it LOL! The most important thing of all is that I wish to see those who had left their church, return to where they belong - church :)

2010-04-28T20:43:00.002+08:00

A Brand New Start

Started my new job as a temporary management supporting officer on 26 April. Haha! Sounds cool isn't it haha. I enjoyed working there, at least for the previous 2 days as compared to working in MOE.

Went for SMU Business Administration interview today. Saw quite a no. of NP students. Anyway there are 2 sections with part A consisting of essay writing and comprehension and part B group discussion. There were only 1 guy from hwa chong and another from an international school in my group, the rest are all poly students. That guy from the international school was only 18!!!! I gotta admit he was the most outstanding candidates of all with his hand raised up almost every 1 min. LOL. Hopefully I'll get selected as well :)

2010-04-24T18:26:00.002+08:00

Puzzled Mind

Received a call from SMU to enter an interview next wednesday for business administration. Finally :)

Had a great basketball game with my poly mates and internship colleagues. It was great haha! Kobe bryant live in bp cc LOL! It's been quite some time since I last played with so many people haha.

Was taking a nap and my mum waked me up thinking that I got a letter from the uni. LOL. It was the enlistment letter instead. Sigh. What's next? Really not in the mood to do anything now.

I really cant think of anything to blog. Watching a chrisitian movie now. It's such a sad yet touching story.

God has a plan for everyone :)

2010-04-23T01:30:00.004+08:00

Following God's Will

Called Lee Jun up al of a sudden haha. Was browsing through my phonebook, finding people to chill out with me. Glad I got lionel and lee jun with me :) It was a surprise to see elson at cwp haha. That makes 2 4/3 and 2 4/4 students LOL.

Later in the night nich invited me out for a movie - shutter island. It was great. There were a lot of thoughts after watching the movie and sitting here now in front of my com. Just like Leonardo in the movie, sometimes we're just as blind as him. Unconcious. What is it that truly matters to us? Scoring well for exams, winning a competition or is it gaining fame? Are all these earthly treasures? Do not not store up treasures on earth but in heaven. I often put studies before God and that was a very wrong choice. I believe if he wants to put me through this, skipping that few hours for him to attend cell, service or any programmes, he'll definitely pay me back with twice or thrice times the amount I would not have expected. That's my God.

Since primary one all the way until now. PSLE, O Level and Diploma. Everything went off so smoothly that just when I realized it, I enlisting soon and at the same time, waiting for university. This's my story, what's yours?

2010-04-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

What I have Been Waiting For This 3 Years

One, two, three,.... When's my turn, God? I've been waiting for it since my very first year of poly. Now that I got the results, you're not telling me that it's the end already? Hmm looking at how many of my friends had already gotten their acceptance letter from the univeristy makes me worried! Come to think of it, majority of them scored much better for their o levels, is that the reason?

Been struggling this 3 years, thinking whether I should retake my O's. It's not as if it's that bad though. At least I managed to get into LMGT, all thanks to my cca points :) Something came across my mind whenever I thought of this. That's wad you had given me, God. I'll be content and accept as it is. I'll follow your will.

It's said to be early may, I shall continue to open my letterbox daily and keep a lookout for that letter. I believe wadeva the outcome is, it'll always be the best for me :)

Congratulations to those who received the uni letter :)

2010-04-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

The Nature of Human LOL?

It's weird, I thought when one ignored your msg, you tell him off and he will most probably stop it. It seems not to be the case here. Had an appointment with you for breakfast? Even though I had eaten but since it's a promise I thought I should just accompany you for breakfast. Since I supposed you're still asleep so I left you with a msg, you ignored my msg as usual (I mean sometimes you do), and later in the afternoon msg me saying I should have called you?

Hmm is it really so hard to reply a sms? You're not the only one. I have got friends who are just like you. Those who ignore smses, those who never turn up for appointments or meetings and still don think that they are wrong (I mean though they verbally admit they are wrong but they never change).

Doesnt that sounds wrong to everyone? Hmm am I too petty or is it just normal? LOL! If it's wrong or irresponsible, why then, people still do it despite knowing the facts. What an irony.

2010-04-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

Got To Have Faith In Him

As a matter of fact, I'm kinda worried about going NS but at the same time, I looking forward to becoming physically and mentally strong. Guess it's due to the many factors/problems I might come across with which frightened me.

I'm so tired and sleepy now. Feeling so restless all of a sudden lol.

It's been nearly two months since the university applications. Seems like quite a number of my friends gotten the letter from the universities already. Been checking my letterbox regularly but to no avail. It's kind of bothering me as I was aiming for a place in the university all along. That's just show how much faith I have in God. Shouldnt even in the first place be worried about it. He has it all planned out for me. If it's mine, eventually I'll receive the letter.

Life's been rather colorful ever since I quitted that job. Got another HR administrative job again and hope it will turns out well this time round. Most importantly of all, I don wish to have any conflicts with my partner who introduced this job to me. Cant imagine if he decides not to work all of a sudden and MIA haha.

2010-04-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

I'm finally free

It was a struggle for me for the past 3 weeks. All I want to do is to fully utilize my time while waiting for enlistment. Never did I realize walking into MOE was a wrong step or rather getting attached to the assist. executive was a wrong choice.

How would you feel if you are scolded for almost every single day? How would you react if whatever you do, does not satisfy your boss and she just keeps on scolding you. I had finally reached my limit, it has to be stopped.

Called my executive to settle everything once and for all. Here's the dialogue:

Teck: Hey Shin, sorry about just now but I gotta leave earlier. Just want to tell you that I want to quit this job.

Shin: Why? (Stern)

Teck: The pressure coming from **** was overwhelming and I cant take it anymore. I'm being scolded everyday for everythings I do irregardless whether it is something right or wrong. Taking one example was that she said she will finish arranging the folder when she comes back on saturday. However when I came to work this morning, she left the folders on my desk. I remembered her telling me about double checking before dispatching the folders and so I did. I spotted the mistakes and again, I was scolded for not identifying it earlier. Didnt you just finished doing it on saturday when no one was around in the office? Being scolded by her has already become a phobia for me. I wanted to work as an HR admin as it was my interest and I'm waiting for enlistment so I thought I should find something I really like. However the outcome was this.

Shin: You'll face this type of problems very often when you enter the workforce and you should have brought up this matter earlier and not when you're about to leave. She did mention you in front of me before but I dont think she dislikes you as the previous TC worked for 3 days and **** asked him to leave. Ok never mind, take it as a learning experience and you take a rest from now and forget about all this unpleasant stuffs, I will inform her tmr.

I was really touched by his words. I was perservering this few weeks and I was afraid by voicing out my problems, things might get awkward so I kept it inside myself. Parents weren't around in singapore and I had no one to talk to. I'm glad I'm finally free :)

2010-04-10T14:00:00.002+08:00

Looking Back At The Past

I missed the time I played the cello in an orchestra/enemble. Life w/o music is indeed dull. Didnt have the discipline to practise despite having the time to do it now. Can't get any better just by sitting here and thinking about it. Maybe, it's time.

It's just so hard to change one's character sometimes. I just dislike changes to any plans after it's been confirmed. Life's so unpredictable.

There're things that I wana do and things that I wish I could stop myself from doing. It's just so tough.

I really wana quit this time. MOE is driving me crazy. Is it just because I cannot take the stress or is it true that they had already crossed the line. God help me please. It doesn't seems to be something I wana do.

Home Alone 2

My parents will be back tomorrow! I feel so relieved. Get to experience a lot of things through this week. Washing the clothes, drying and hanging it up, making sure it doesn't rain etc. It's so troublesome but now I know how my parents felt haha.

I dono how to iron my clothes!!! Shit!!!

Appointment was cancelled in the last minute -.- and I didnt go for the recce today either. Just waiting for 7pm so that i can meet you. It's just weird, waiting till 7pm just to go out with your friends and go home together. Doesn't it sounds weird? Hope it'll be interesting then.

2010-04-07T00:38:00.002+08:00

The Life of an Adult

Going to work was like a way to kill my time until yesterday when I got scolded and same things happened today. It's really pressurizing and unlike the usual time, I don't even have the time to sms. Lol. It's the peak period so I cant blame anyone. Kept scolding her back in my heart for she always gives last minute instructions and expect me to remember every single things. I tried something new instead. Thank her for identifying my mistakes and to my surprise, she suddenly came to help me out with the folders LOL.

Going to PSC tomorrow morning and got to rush all the way back to MOE. Hope I don get scolded again tmr sigh.

Met Hong yi just now to sell my nba 08 disc to him haha. It's been quite a while and it was great to see him. Haha. More decent looking due to his short hair. Nice haha.
Gotta QT and sleep already. I don think I can wake up tml!!!

2010-04-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

Good Friday

I am ashamed of not putting God as my priority for most of the time and I have to confess that I never turn up for service on the eve of Good Friday. I turned up for Good Friday service and left earlier after finishing my prayers. Went to meet the young yet feminine one :) It was the first meeting though great but I felt a sense of uncomfort. It was great thought :)

Had cell on sunday morning before the combined service. AGAIN, the very same person never turn up and had the guts to not even notify us. I reminded myself not to be fast to conclude but stay calm and think of the next step. Finally managed to control my temper and sent him a msg. I thought I might have an answer from him and I believe he must have met up with some problems. I knew, I knew something happened.
However the answer gave was unreasonable.

Whatever we do, we got to stand by our promise and if there's anything that cropped up, it's only right to inform the other party. It's said, a leopard never changes its spot but I kind of believe that this might not be true. Dude, pls prove to me that I'm right. I honestly don't like ______ person. You know it. You better think of a valid reason and let us know. It's not just about attending cell but one's personalities. You'll get fired just like my supervisor last time, who always never turn up and never inform anyone and uncontactable somemore. It's time to grow up and change.

We may be willing to forgive anyone but before the impression is gone, change. Don't just affirm verbally but show us.

Went to meet her again after church and this time, it was totally different. You can tell what's going on now. It was a great day. We went to watch "How to Train a Dragon", and indeed it was the right choice haha. Such lovely, touching and interesting movie. It was a pleasure knowing you. I just enjoy being with you.

Home Alone 1 - The Beginning of Everything

With my parents away in Taiwan, it would means home alone, my bro is always home late and he got work too. Hmm gotta start doing hoouse chores already. Busy busy. Gotta wash clothes, dry and hang them up. Boring!!! But that's what I got to do in the future too.

My little rabbit must be starving!!!! Ate early in the morning and waited until I'm home at 8 plus!! So POOR THING!!!! I'm glad my totoise never comes out haha, this means he don't wanna eat LOL!!!

Anyway, it was a bad day today. I was scolded by my boss for doing this and that wrong. If it's something so important, why don't you do it yourself. Why did you spend your time walking around chatting with the others, chatting on the phone when you can help me with it? What a jerk. Just because you got two assistant, doesn't mean you can throw everything to us. U're a mother for goodness sake. Sigh, I feel bad for your kid.

Stop blaming me when you were the one who was supposed to check and identify my errors. I'm new here aren't I? Wonder how long can I last working in such pathetic place.

Met nich and went JP to collect my Aino bluetooth ear piece. Finally gotten it back!!! Really appreciate your company despite being so tired. Sorry about that haha.

2010-04-03T12:08:00.003+08:00

A New Saga

Why should I feel embarassed with what I do? It's not something wrong neither is it something bad. Is it due to a lack of faith or low self esteem? Gotta work this out. GOD!!! Pls shower me with the blessing of faith!!!

Here comes a new challenger.

Attended the good friday service. It was sad though, to see everyone being in their own clique whereas I'm alone. Cliques and couples here and there, where are my cell mates or my 2 brothers sigh. Dono why I always feel so left out.

Anyway had a great time praying. Gotta start afresh from now! Get away!! You evil temptations!!!!!!

Indeed always heard girls being hurt by guys but it always seems to be the opposite way when I think of myself LOL! It's weird. Are there really so many hypocrites in singapore?

2010-04-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

The H3 subject question

Have been researching this case study as it is the key to passing this H3 subject -Different Aspect of Human Personalities. I was glad I am finally able to come out with a conclusion. You might find that the two options given are totally different unlike those MCQ questions you did for your H1 subject. There isn't any trick to this case study.

The two options I mentioned earlier on was:

A - caesium + water --> The resultant is the key to this option

B - Red lobster

A

Cello cello. Bringing hope and happiness from the start but turning everything into disappointment in the end. What a "AO MIAO" western instruments it is. You were created to bring music into life but yet you created a havoc. An instrument with such long historical past and with such great pride and honour. Never did I realize that you can cause a person to forsake you at the beginning but decides to pull you to her side again. You helped me see through a person. Bringing a conclusion to this missing puzzle. BUT you made me dislike this person even deeper. Shouldnt you try lessening my hatred with your sweet music?

B

Busy, busy and busy. Such nice words. This word never fails to bring a stop to everything. That's nothing muh to talk about this option. Things were different 3 years ago and everything changed now. Key point is insufficient time, busy, busy and busy.

Readers, you people must be finding it confusing or for those who understand, you must be thinking that it's an irony.

I'm done with my H3 subject!!!!!!!! Finally!!! This marks an end to everything. I'm glad. Wad a fruitful day.

2010-03-31T21:01:00.004+08:00

4 Days of Break

Wonder why do I change the font size of the words. Blogger system changed already? I cant seem to find the font size option. Anyway my superior asked me to rest at home tomorrow since the other TC will not be coming as well. I wonder why am I so happy for lol. I'm supposed to be working as taking a day off means no money! Anyway hopefully I get a proper desk soon. Since like I'll be shifting to one of the previous TC's desk.

Was thinking of either swimming or playing badminton tomorrow. Gotta exercise. BUT first of all, I have to get my hair cut!

I'm glad I found this job, at least it keeps my mind occupied.

Doesnt want to do a non profit business doesnt means I'm not willing to sacrifice. The thing is just how worthy it is to spend your time on that. You may think it is so WEI DA to love someone whom doesnt love you at all but I think that's totally bullshit. You just have to get your mind off him/her before you hurt yourself even deeper. How silly you are. LOL!

For all that I know, ever since sunday, everything changed and I'm glad I got something to keep me occupied :)

Work = money

It's my dad's birthday today and we went the Soup Restaurant for dinner! Food were nice but expensive! Just when I take a closer look at him, he sure has aged. Sigh glad at least I was able to give him a treat though 3/4 of the sum were paid by my uncle haha!

2010-03-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

Seems like NP guys have yet to receive the NS enlistment letter, at least from those that I know of. Can you imagine just how fast time travels? Sure enjoy the school life while in secondary school and poly. I won't stop at diploma level. I'll definitely get to the local U!!!

Anyway while thinking of blogging when I was working, I thought of the side effect of a joke. Yes of course, life without teasing each other or cracking joke is indeed boring. BUT have anyone of you thought of how some joke can be hurtful at times? I pray that God will give me the wisdom to speak. I hope I did not offend anyone verbally without realizing it.

It's fun to get tease at times like for example, HEY NICH!!! Look who's there man!!! Why you suddenly seem so HAPPY!??? Hahaha! Is it really that happy to see someone whom you like? Doesnt that brings you pain instead?

Honestly, I cant stand being ignored after you asked a question be it by sms, face to face talk or an email or whatsoever. Is busy an excuse? So if someone you like were to sms you, will you reply or will you ignore like what you normally does? Am I right to say that we often judge people according to how much we see or like them and treat them differently? What a sinful act.

Now's not the time yet??? Wonder how many times I have hear this phrase. I have already graduated!!! I got all the time I want now. The thing is, I'm still unable to move this "rock" !!!

I'm sure, very sure that if you were to call me and tell me you need me, even if I'm fast asleep, even if it's in the midnight or early in the morning and no matter how tired and weak I'm and where you are, I'll make sure I run the thousand over miles, swim across the ocean, climb over the mountains, brave across the thunderstorm just to be there for you and to give you one tight slap for waking me up when I'm already dying LOL! But that's just how much you're important to me.

Touching yet funny, as expected from myself :) HA HA!

2010-03-27T10:36:00.003+08:00

Always seeking some words of wisdom from your blog dude. Seems like blogging is becoming a way of communicating. Yes indeed the jungle is full of many flowers and fruits. Maybe that was just a rotten one. I'm glad I have yet to put it into my mouth.

Talking about fruits, something else came into my mind - fruits of the spirit. Can you name it all? For all I know patience is what I'm always looking for.

Instead of whining at how miserable life can be sometimes, I thought it was a rather good idea to give thanks for whatever that's happening. Though no proper desk and computer for me, but for all I know, I met a group of friendly and interesting friends. On the other hand, I'm one step closer to identifying what are some of the inedible fruits.

Anyway nichloas, u said u saw lots of emo-tic phrases from "them" right? I thought that was what they wanted. Treat others the way you want them to treat you. That's all I can say.

I heard a "love" story from a close friend once. It seems like her life is indeed so miserable and I really pity her. Afterall I got to know her better, I thought, wasn't that what you always wanted? That's just how you treat others LOL.

I guess we are all insensitive at times, we talk about how our lifes are so pathetic but looking from the big picture, it might be due to the fact that we have already taken a wrong step from the start. That's life, it's too tough to walk back, just got to continue walking straight.

Blogging has become my way of releasing stress recently. Monday to Friday is just about waking up to brush my teeth and bathe, proceed to work, dismiss from work and meet my dear brother nichloas. Honestly, I was always looking forward to meeting you after work, maybe because there's just too many common topic to talk about. Saturday???? Sunday, church service and CAMP MEETING!!!! What a standard way of living lol.

How great it is to let everything out instead of hiding your thoughts.

2010-03-27T00:26:00.003+08:00

What should you do when whatever someone does, pisses u off. Inpatience has already become an obstacle for me.

Everything little small things are affecting my mood. SHUCKS!!!!

It's always like this.

Always coming up with new excuses which I gotta say may be valid at times but it's just hard for me to accept.

I'm freaking irritated by your decision. Come on! Prioritize!!! Since you can be so flexible with the others and do the same to the rest of us, i mean me LOL.

Another insensitive freak. Why the hell should I even save my hp batt for you, waiting for the hp to ring, getting distracted by it...... F*** it!!!! Cant believe how pathetic I am. WAKE UP!!!!!

Anyway, for goodness sake, HTH doesn't need to be a guy chatting wif a gal

2010-03-26T23:12:00.003+08:00

Seems like the welfare of my side here has got some grudges against us. No personal desk and desktop. Everything gotta be shared despite having extra computers and so many EMPTY SPACES!!!! 2 weeks had just passed and I really wonder how long I can stand this.

On the other side, the agent had continuously failed to send us the link to update our attendace - salary, and 2 weeks had passed. Ridiculous.

Cel postphoned again. Maybe it's time we break up this cell. It's not moving at all.

With cell cancelled, I met nicholas ng jun hao as usual and went orchard. Finally got to see who karen is lol. Nvr seen her before though. Anyway didn't expect von to be there watching movie too but lol...

Went over causeway point for some light supper before going home. Guess we had a HTH talk throughout the whole journey lol. Why are we always the victim? HAHA!

2010-03-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

It's the second week at MOE! Cant believe who I saw today at the MOE scholarship interview. What a small world haha. Sadly I attended the interview as a clerk and not an applicant haha!

Though busy but I gotta admit time passes really fast while working there. One thing bad about it is that I got no personal computer!!!

Yup, tomorrow's friday but cant go home!!! Got cell LOL! Must be enthusiatic about it haha! Hope to see majority of them there tmr.

Attended Jie ying's concert on tuesday and I was really surprised by the number of audience. LOL! Not even one quarter of the theatre is occupied. What's happening??? Anyway great things happened after the concert LOL! Didn't expect it.

I guess for the next few working days, I should be meeting nicholas as usual and go home together. OT for half an hour daily haha! Such diligent worker. Finish my job on time and stayed back to do even "more" stuffs haha!

2010-03-20T02:34:00.003+08:00

What a great day to start! Refreshing, motivated and happy!Results been improving since the first semester and here I am, finally reached the highest possible GPA. What a good ending :) Thank you lord! :D

Next stop, UNIVERSITY!!!

With my partner leaving early today, got quite some tasks to complete and it was a total mess!!! Indeed working as an administrator/clerk isn't as easy as I thought but it shall become a good testimony and experience for me :)

2010-03-18T22:04:00.003+08:00

Tmr shall be an important for all NP students haha! Quite nervous.

It's always good to keep myself occupied with a job, at least it helps kill time :) Sad thing is, I got no motivation to do any other things.

Gotta start thinking wad I really want lol. Everyday's just work, sleep, QT and that's all lol. Anyone feeling bored now should jus think of what they really want and start MOVING!

As usual, I'm still too fast in making a conclusion. Is it because of inpatience or lack of faith?

2010-03-15T21:21:00.002+08:00

First day at work. Nice environment but uncomfortable working condition for me. Not personal desk!!! Wonder if one can imagine how painful my back can be. There were 6 other temporary staffs and were around my age. The jobs are really straight forward and as expected, you don't need to think! Everything is fixed, it's just like following a SOP. To my surprise, there was a Njc girl living near me and I was asked to work under or rather with her. Heard something like how they chose me so I'm kind of proud of myself in a way :)

It was great to receive wishes from my peers regarding my first day of work. Honestly I did not expect it.

Anyway it's all back to dark hair again, not used to it but it seems normal when I go for work.

Thinking of the lishi camp make me stressed!!! With jia ni taking up the role of makingthe video, it was a relieve for me as I had never really use the movie maker despite I'm from NP!!!! Dono why but i just felt bad for her???

Always been spending my time with nicholas and jun wei before my work started and i thought it was great to spend time catching up with friends or even just chat with them despite seeing each other almost everyday LOL.

2010-03-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

Took a few weeks before I got this offer. Admin at MOE teaching scholarhsip unit!!! Great! Thanks LORD!!! :D

Been spending money this few weeks!!! Gotta start to save up from now.

There's 2 options now isnt it? A & B. I guess A's out!!! Been trying my very best to "research" and the result I got isn't really pleasing. Though it's left with B but it's just so hard to "reasearch" on it.

Nich!!! Cant believe you even state your criteria for your future gf on your blog haha! U think u're holding a matchmaking sessions for yourself ah haha!

Anyway here's some highlights of my life recently haha!

2010-02-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

Life after graduating from NP remains a question mark! Thought I'll grab onto u b4 I leave but u're a disappointment LOL. Why are we all so insensitive(Am I?)!

Prom night went off smoothly. Sadly none from our table won any lucky draws LOL. Went to supper club after that. Cool :)

2010-02-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

I wonder wad's the point of asking me if i can make it if none are serious bout gg out lol. All say i buay steady and in e end only simon n i were out lol. Where's the organizer? The one who's so on bout this meeting? LOL! Excuses coming next.

Glad we finally found an idea of wad we wanted and hopefully everything goes well tmr.

Disappointing indeed.

2010-02-20T21:39:00.002+08:00

Busy preparing for uni application! Left with NTU now :)

I wonder if she's actually aware of it. Kinda obvious uh. LOL not tht I believe but just happened to overlook the horoscope just now. Seems like my tao hua yun is here haha! Anyway, whenever I feel like just letting everything go, here comes the "false" hope again. Wonder if it's true or not lol. Really got nth to say about u this. Weird.

Anyway gotta start finding the right job while keeping myself fit :)

2010-02-19T12:56:00.001+08:00

Went to BP for CNY! For the first time since 2006 or something, the ten brothers finally get to gather tgt once more haha.

Finished presentation already! This means free from NP but doesn't seems to be something that I'm really happy about LOL. Gotta find something to occupy my time!!!
It's all about waiting now.

This and that, everything, wait and wait...

2010-02-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

Resources and contacts are what I have. Report completed. PPT, still working in process. Been spending my time with reports and projects. Need some entertainment!

Went back to NP with ernest today. Collected my Napfa jacket!!! It was tough but I managed to make it through. Thanks Lord! :) Filled up the forms for testimonial n waiting for Doris to send the sample file which obviously she forgotten bout it.

Cell lunch ytd? Why I nvr go? I thought at least someone knows why but it seems not the case.

Skeptical, Cynical...... lol???

2010-02-09T10:12:00.002+08:00

I don think i can run anymore haha!!!! Getting worse! But pull-ups is still a thumbsup for me hahaha! Just when I realized it, I'm graduating soon :(

How I wish to see both of u getting well tgt so that others will not be hurt. Sometimes, it's just too hard to change a fact that had already been there for quite some times.

Thought it could be the last one b4 I graduate but I guess.... It wasn't what I expected.

Shall make it to the uni!!!! Will try my best!!!

2010-02-03T22:38:00.002+08:00

Really nid the time to think of wad i wana add in for my final report. Not very much of the least worried since God has already planned everything for me but I just cant stand myself wasting the time thinking and couldnt get anything out from my mind. A 80++ pages of a quality report HAHA! Thesis!

Left with less than 2 weeks to the deadline. Running out of time!!!! Trying to focus but there's too much distractions. Don even have the time to sign up for uni!!!

2010-02-02T21:21:00.002+08:00

At last!!! My blog is back to normal except the fact tht all links are gone and no more tagboard!!! Can someone help me put a tagboard in my blog???

It's been a while since I last blogged! Last week of attachment spent in Philips showroom LOL! Tougher than I expected but get to understand more bout their products LOL!

Wonder if I'm able to catch it b4 I graduate from NP. So near yet so far.

May God continues to guide me in my path ahead!

2010-01-01T11:23:00.003+08:00

Isnt there any place to shop? haha. It's the start of 2010. Few days more to enjoy myself b4 i reach 20!!!! Kinda hard to accept the fact that I'm reaching 20!!! LOL!

Hopefully there'll be a change in this brand new year haha!